Well, I said I was going to start blogging again and here I am blogging. Its Easter and all I can think about is stupid homework. Yes I know you are asking yourself why not work on it instead of blogging and my response is..... Ill get there. Right now I have way too much on my mind to actually concentrate on one assignment.
Im feeling drained, spent, exhausted, and worn out with school. I put myself in this situation and you would think I would like it considering Im finally studying what I want but I dont know its just that Ive been going at too long. I didnt take the summer off for the first time last summer and I think its catching up with me. Im hoping that I wont have to take a class this summer semester. Well see on Tuesday when I meet with my canceler.
I just got back from vacation but Im not rested. Physically I am rested I think but it was a very emotional vacation. I wont bore with the details but lets just say after four years of asking 'what if' I no long have to wonder. Its a little weird have to change the way you think and even act. I know you know what Im talking about.
Im talking about something that happens that changes your perspective or outlook on life. I had one picture and now I have nothing. It was easier to live with a picture.... or lets say a goal than to live without one. Its not that Im living without goals.... I have tons of those but they dont seem to lead to the 'BIG PICTURE'.
I suppose that over zealous of me to say considering I have to idea what the 'BIG PICTURE' will be but at least I thought I had an idea. Now Im being challenged to depend completely on my faith. To trust that everything will go according to 'plan'. No I realize its not my plan at all. Sometimes its just hard not to question.
I suppose now I will just have to work from day to day. I would consider myself strong but Im definitely being tested now.
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